Post by Firefly on Dec 24, 2012 15:14:33 GMT -5
So this happened in my brain after JB told me that Val might die at some point in Terminus. Note this is probably "non-canon" mostly cause the only thing I control in this RP is Wyn. So if anything is off or out of character, I'm sorry.
Dear Val,
I’ll cut to the chase: this letter was my mama’s idea. I was thinking about you and it ended with me crying in Mama’s lap, and her stroking me and telling me, “everything will be okay”. Her being the psychologist she is, told me a good way to let go of my feelings is to put them in some sort of tangible form, to get them out. So that’s why I’m writing a letter to a fucking dead man.
Goddamnit Val, there are so many things I wish I could tell you about. For one thing I have a planet now. Commander Shepard and Tali’Zorah got us Rannoch back. We’ve had it for a year now. Val, I can’t even describe how much I love the homeworld. We visited so many beautiful places when we were on the Balrog, but Rannoch is the most beautiful planet there is. Mostly because its mine. This is the land of my ancestors, the land I thought I would never see. And yet I’m here. I’m with my parents again, and we have a house, a fucking house! It’s pretty small, barely enough room for the three of us, but it’s ours. It’s been a whole year, but I still can’t believe this is real. I feel like I’m in a dream, and I’m going to wake up any moment, to you announcing some bullshit on the Balrog intercom.
You’re probably wondering; what about the Geth? Yeah, they’re our friends now. Shepard fucking brokered peace with them. I have no idea how, but he did. I went from sniping Geth to well… not sniping Geth. I mean I don’t really have any Geth “friends” per say, but they’re around, helping us recolonize. They’re nice enough… I guess. It’s just strange. I grew up hearing about these monsters who’d kill me, and now I’m just walking past them on the street and the just nod at me and acknowledge me. It’s fucking weird, and I don’t think I’ll ever get used to it. But we wouldn’t be where we are right now with restoring Rannoch, without them. They’re even helping us learn to adjust to living without the suits. It’ll be awhile before I can live without it completely, but I can take it off for short times. I now know what my parents look like. I look just like my papa, though that smile of mine that you love so much, is from my mama. But she’s much prettier than me. They both have black hair though, so where the fuck did my red hair come from? I dunno.
But yeah things are still pretty weird here. We Quarians have a lot to do. We had zero economy on the Flotilla, and now we have to start building one. Our whole society was dedicated to living on a ship, and now we need to rebuild it. But we can do it, we’ve had to rebuild our society before when we first left the homeworld. The Quarians are strong people and we can handle it. We’ve received a bit of galactic support, most worlds are busy cleaning up the mess the Reapers left, but we’ve still gotten support. I like to think they’re doing it out of the goodness of their hearts, but I know the real reason. They just wanna make sure we have a place to live that’s our territory and not there’s. Fuck them. So it’s a pretty weird time filled with lots of change. My parents are “busy bees” as the humans say, working long shifts at the new hospital. As for me, I really don’t have a steady job, I mostly do odd jobs and volunteering to fix things up. I still don’t know what I want to do with my life, luckily my parents are okay with letting me stay with them until I do.
I’ve only left Rannoch a few times since the war ended. Pretty much every time was to visit my goddaughter. Yup, I have a goddaughter. And the baby is Kryseis’ and Elam’s. They had a little “accident” if you will. They named her Valyria. Elam swears to God, that it being like your name is a complete coincidence. I’m not sure if he’s telling the truth. It won’t be too long till she turns a year old, and since she’s an Asari, it’s like the equivalent of being like 3 months old. She can’t even sit up. But she is so adorable, Val. You should see how Elam dotes on her. Valyria means so much to him and he says he’ll always be there for her, even if she dumps someone out an airlock like he did. Kryseis… well she was kinda PO’d since she’s still in her Maiden stage, and she had to miss out on fighting for Thessia because of her pregnancy. But she loves Valyria, and she’s a good mom. I’m really good with the baby, and when I’m with her, I kinda want one of my own. Not right now, I have no way of supporting a child, but I still kind of wonder how things could of gone.
I mean I know it’s stupid, but I wonder if we could of made a life together on Rannoch. I mean it’s pretty far away from all the enemies you accumulated, and most Quarians don’t even know who you are. I mean we could have had a kid….you know through a sperm donor obviously. But at the same time, I know you were probably too far gone down the path you chose to get out of it. I could get out, Elam could, Krys could, but you were in way too deep. You could of never had a normal life.
I really wish I could talk to you again. I want to tell you so much. I wish you could actually read this. Mostly I want you to know I’m not that little street rat you found all those years ago. I’m not the immature girl who cussed too much and cried over men. I’ve matured so much, and a lot of it came from you, from us. If it weren’t for you Val, I wouldn’t even be alive. You were easily the most influential person in my life, and I honestly can’t believe you’re gone. That I live in a galaxy without a Val Caligulus. It feels a lot more empty without one.
Love,
Wyn
I’ll cut to the chase: this letter was my mama’s idea. I was thinking about you and it ended with me crying in Mama’s lap, and her stroking me and telling me, “everything will be okay”. Her being the psychologist she is, told me a good way to let go of my feelings is to put them in some sort of tangible form, to get them out. So that’s why I’m writing a letter to a fucking dead man.
Goddamnit Val, there are so many things I wish I could tell you about. For one thing I have a planet now. Commander Shepard and Tali’Zorah got us Rannoch back. We’ve had it for a year now. Val, I can’t even describe how much I love the homeworld. We visited so many beautiful places when we were on the Balrog, but Rannoch is the most beautiful planet there is. Mostly because its mine. This is the land of my ancestors, the land I thought I would never see. And yet I’m here. I’m with my parents again, and we have a house, a fucking house! It’s pretty small, barely enough room for the three of us, but it’s ours. It’s been a whole year, but I still can’t believe this is real. I feel like I’m in a dream, and I’m going to wake up any moment, to you announcing some bullshit on the Balrog intercom.
You’re probably wondering; what about the Geth? Yeah, they’re our friends now. Shepard fucking brokered peace with them. I have no idea how, but he did. I went from sniping Geth to well… not sniping Geth. I mean I don’t really have any Geth “friends” per say, but they’re around, helping us recolonize. They’re nice enough… I guess. It’s just strange. I grew up hearing about these monsters who’d kill me, and now I’m just walking past them on the street and the just nod at me and acknowledge me. It’s fucking weird, and I don’t think I’ll ever get used to it. But we wouldn’t be where we are right now with restoring Rannoch, without them. They’re even helping us learn to adjust to living without the suits. It’ll be awhile before I can live without it completely, but I can take it off for short times. I now know what my parents look like. I look just like my papa, though that smile of mine that you love so much, is from my mama. But she’s much prettier than me. They both have black hair though, so where the fuck did my red hair come from? I dunno.
But yeah things are still pretty weird here. We Quarians have a lot to do. We had zero economy on the Flotilla, and now we have to start building one. Our whole society was dedicated to living on a ship, and now we need to rebuild it. But we can do it, we’ve had to rebuild our society before when we first left the homeworld. The Quarians are strong people and we can handle it. We’ve received a bit of galactic support, most worlds are busy cleaning up the mess the Reapers left, but we’ve still gotten support. I like to think they’re doing it out of the goodness of their hearts, but I know the real reason. They just wanna make sure we have a place to live that’s our territory and not there’s. Fuck them. So it’s a pretty weird time filled with lots of change. My parents are “busy bees” as the humans say, working long shifts at the new hospital. As for me, I really don’t have a steady job, I mostly do odd jobs and volunteering to fix things up. I still don’t know what I want to do with my life, luckily my parents are okay with letting me stay with them until I do.
I’ve only left Rannoch a few times since the war ended. Pretty much every time was to visit my goddaughter. Yup, I have a goddaughter. And the baby is Kryseis’ and Elam’s. They had a little “accident” if you will. They named her Valyria. Elam swears to God, that it being like your name is a complete coincidence. I’m not sure if he’s telling the truth. It won’t be too long till she turns a year old, and since she’s an Asari, it’s like the equivalent of being like 3 months old. She can’t even sit up. But she is so adorable, Val. You should see how Elam dotes on her. Valyria means so much to him and he says he’ll always be there for her, even if she dumps someone out an airlock like he did. Kryseis… well she was kinda PO’d since she’s still in her Maiden stage, and she had to miss out on fighting for Thessia because of her pregnancy. But she loves Valyria, and she’s a good mom. I’m really good with the baby, and when I’m with her, I kinda want one of my own. Not right now, I have no way of supporting a child, but I still kind of wonder how things could of gone.
I mean I know it’s stupid, but I wonder if we could of made a life together on Rannoch. I mean it’s pretty far away from all the enemies you accumulated, and most Quarians don’t even know who you are. I mean we could have had a kid….you know through a sperm donor obviously. But at the same time, I know you were probably too far gone down the path you chose to get out of it. I could get out, Elam could, Krys could, but you were in way too deep. You could of never had a normal life.
I really wish I could talk to you again. I want to tell you so much. I wish you could actually read this. Mostly I want you to know I’m not that little street rat you found all those years ago. I’m not the immature girl who cussed too much and cried over men. I’ve matured so much, and a lot of it came from you, from us. If it weren’t for you Val, I wouldn’t even be alive. You were easily the most influential person in my life, and I honestly can’t believe you’re gone. That I live in a galaxy without a Val Caligulus. It feels a lot more empty without one.
Love,
Wyn